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I work,support myself financially and still try to do all I can to show I want to grow as a person and as a family but it's not enough!! If I work all day I come home and need a nap ( I am a server at a busy resteraunt )yet If the house is what he feels is messy or if he thinks I've talked to another guy or something , he is so emotionally abusive and bullying It sets me off and we fight. I have not always been a responsible person but I am trying so hard to make the best of this for myself and for us and It seems it means nothing!!! we both hurt each other emotionally so badly I feel we will never be a family let alone even friends. I am so so sad.